Although the hearing depicted in this essay is based primarily on one case, Marco is an invented name, and the people and situation described are a composite of several individuals and sentencings.

— Ed.

 

A young man stands at the lectern: nineteen years old, athletic, thick black hair down to his shoulders. I’ll call him Marco. Today my job is to decide whether to send him to prison.

His mother leans forward on a bench two rows back, as close as she is allowed to get in the courtroom. Marco twists around to say something to her, words that can only be I love you. The deputy posted along the wall jerks his head to tell Marco to face forward. He reluctantly obeys, and his court-appointed lawyer places a hand against his back as if to steady him.